Dear C,
> I'm sorry to bring this up, but it's something which
> is really bothering me and since our new game plan
> is talking shit out and keeping the lines of
> communication open...  I'll be honest; I was pretty
> hurt when I heard that you, Loren and Kenney all
> planned a let's get drunk with Kenney night on the
> weekend of my birthday, at my house, no less, and
> didn't invite me.  I suppose it was assumed that I
> was invited because I live here, but what I don't
> think anyone is quite understanding is that I do not
> feel comfortable around, nor do I want to be around
> Loren. To me, a night spent drinking and being
> forced to hang out with her if I even want to hang
> out at my own house, would really suck.  I realize
> that she is both your's and Kenney's friend and
> that's fine, but I should not be made to feel
> uncomfortable and forced to hide upstairs in my own
> house.  I guess what is most upsetting is that she
> is acting like everything is fine even though she
> knows I'm pissed.  In fact, I almost think
>  she likes it- the power to drive someone away from
> their friends and out of their own house is a pretty
> strong power.  Perhaps if she would appologize, it
> wouldn't be so bad.  Of course I know she won't
> apologize though- we've been through this before-
> rather than apologize last time, she just refused to
> speak to me for a year and a half- hell I wasn't
> entirely over being upset about that, but I was just
> so glad to have her back and it didn't seem worth it
> to hash it all out because it was something really
> stupid in the first place)  That's not to say that I
> would trust or ever be close to her like I once was,
> but at least I could be around her without wanting
> to throw things.  She has made it quite obvious that
> she doesn't feel that our friendship is important or
> worth saving (and perhaps I'm wrong, but is my
> friendship with her over just because she wants to
> hook up with Kenney?- if that's the case, then
> perhaps it was never worth much in the first place
> and it was my mistake for
>  loving and trusting her like I did...) and because
> of that fact, she is not welcome in my house.
> Again, if we talk and she apologizes for betraying
> my trust and stirring up a bunch of drama which I
> didn't need, I might consider continuing my
> friendship with her, even if only in a rather
> limited way and of course at that point, her status
> in my house would definately change.  However,
> untill that point, I would really prefer not to see
> her and hope that you can understand where I'm
> coming from.  Please understand: I am NOT upset with
> you or Kenney at all and I hope that my feelings
> toward Loren aren't going to affect our friendship.
> Well, that's about it.  I really needed to get all
> this off my chest.  I was hoping to put off talking
> to her until I'm not so angry, but since she's
> decided, of late, to start spending more time with
> her lowlife "pothead friends," I have a feeling that
> it will be necissary sooner than that...  Anyhow, I
> love you lots and appreciate you listening.
> Love, ERIN 
>
> P.S. I already talked to Kenney regarding this and I
> will talk to Loren myself so I do ask that this
> email stay between you and I.